Where in the world have I been? Well....that's a really good question. Lately, Ive been mothering a beautiful 2 year old girl who is always laughing and smiling. Her favorite word is "joy" and "Daddy" and she is always saying "Oh wow!" I love her so much and I am just amazed at God's beautiful creation. I'm so very thankful too, for every minute of time her!!!!!!
1 Samuel 1:27
For this child I prayed; and the LORD hath given me my petition which I asked of him:

In addition to all the fun things Ive been doing, the usual heaviness is in my heart. Christmas was different without Grant's excitement. I think about all the things he would have wanted and how special it was to decorate the tree with him. I bet you enjoy doing those things with your children too. I often get the feeling that others look at me and think that I should be "better" by now. But, let me tell you a little secret. Losing a child is like losing a limb. No matter how well you do or how normal you look, you will never be the same again. You will be forever altered and will have to learn to live your life differently. I guess perspective is everything. I did not chose to walk this road, but the Lord saw fit to allow me to. Proverbs 3:5 says Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. There are so many things that I do not understand, but God's word says to trust in Him. I am trusting that He is sovereign and that He will help me learn to live again.

I am really enjoying the 50 degree weather in January! I hope it's pretty for Rebekah's second birthday on the 26th. I can't wait to celebrate this big day with her!